STEVEN CATCHALL

[holeful]

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[kokytos]

You're dead. [ He says this very flatly. ] I don't know, or don't care if you're the type who's going to hit me with one of those bullshit "I already died though" statements, that doesn't make dying any better.

[ Therefore, you are not "not that worse off". ]

There's little we can do else about it. So find some other emotion to wallow in.

[holeful]

Haha... I won't say that, then. But I meant more that before I came here, I was in jail, essentially. So being trapped here, where I can still have some freedom...

[Reaching out just to vaguely pat at Steven's arm.]

[kokytos]

[ STOP PATTING HIM, GOD. He's like, the faintest annoyance at Fukuda's touchiness, but not enough to get mad / say anything about it... ]

So like Satoru, you're another one who showed up from imprisonment.

What was your wish for coming here? Freedom?

[holeful]

[His head pops up so he can look at Steven properly. Hello????]

What do you mean like him?
[THIS IS!!! FUCKING NEWS TO HIM!!!!]

[kokytos]

...?

Satoru was imprisoned in a type of supernatural prison before coming here. I don't know if his wish is even remotely related to that incident, since he doesn't seem particularly concerned about it more than just inconvenienced, but still.

[holeful]

... He never told me about that.

[HE FEELS BETRAYED.]

I guess I didn't know him that well after all.

[kokytos]

Do you expect to know everything that one person has told every other person in the world?

[holeful]

No, I just...

[SIGHS LIKE A BIG OLD DOG.]

I just wish I had gotten to know him better. Even though we spent so much time together... Though I guess a lot of it we were asleep.
[I wonder does Steven know about their sleeping arrangements.]

[kokytos]

[ If you just mean the fact that Fukuda slept in Gojou's room then yes. He spent Week 1 Monday night napping there. ]

Conversely, I'm sure there's stuff that you spoke about with him that I don't know of. It goes both ways.

[holeful]

[OH RIGHT I FORGOT.]

Ah, maybe. That would be nice. He really is an incredible person. The instructions he gave me... Even in the end he was kind to me.

[kokytos]

Yeah. I would say Satoru is a kind person.

Even if his reasons may have been as shallow as just being attention-seeking and little more than that...

I appreciated him.

[ Arms tucked behind his head, he just crosses his legs and continues to look at the mediocre ceiling. Wondering if Satoru was someone he considered a friend. ]

[holeful]

... [Oh.]

I mean, ultimately, isn't that why we reach out to anyone? Because we want their attention?

[kokytos]

I don't really care for the attention of most people. I do it because I have to.

[holeful]

Mm. Like a cat, then.

[He puts his head back down.]

[kokytos]

What?

[holeful]

Well, there's cat people and dog people, right?
[That's not. What those terms mean? Sir?]

Cats are more independent and aloof. The Doctor's like that too.

[kokytos]

...I like cats, but I wouldn't compare myself to one.

[ A sigh. He remembers the Confession text... He already did a confession to Luca of sorts, but he doesn't know if he's meant to be doing more. Seems relevant, anyway. ]

It's not as if I'm against the notion of socializing. I do enjoy it to some extent.

You can just take the joy out of anything if you reduce it to "work".

[holeful]

Haha, well, you did have our meetings be to "exchange information," so I suppose that is work, isn't it?

I don't think I could be like a cat but it would be easier.

[kokytos]

[ A dead sigh. ]

It's just the easiest way to handle things. Getting emotionally involved with anyone is a hassle.

[holeful]

Mm... Dying would have been easier if I hadn't become friends with so many people.

[kokytos]

...I wasn't thinking about that kind of "emotionally involved".

Do you think people missed you when you died?

[ That probably comes out harsher than Steven really meant; it's more an honest question, from him. He'd barely even considered that himself. ]

[holeful]

[STEVEN...]

Mm.... I don't know if I want to hope so or not. I know you were missed, though. Miss Lenore didn't sleep through the trial, and she dress up in all black.

[kokytos]

[ He closes his eyes.

Lenore... ]

...Well, it's not as if I can tell her sorry. Not unless she comes here herself, and I don't wish that on her.

[holeful]

Mm. I don't think she'd want you to anyway. It's not your fault you died?

[kokytos]

You know, you really should stop phrasing everything as a question.