[ What's it with you people, who have already experienced or almost experienced death, and just can... live, like that?
Steven's just incapable of something like that. Or, rather, if he doesn't carefully control all of that, he'd get lost and swept away into nothing. No, he needs to stay alert. ]
I guess that's a talent and power in itself, being able to live like that without fear and regrets.
[You're making a lot of assumptions about what he means, Steven.
Anyway it's fine!!!]
... Hahaha. [What a funny thing Steven has said!!]
You know, I've heard there are hookah bars today that don't use opium? I suppose it's something like a vape, maybe... I wonder if we could get something like that instead, from the Avatars.
[ It's fine, he has some thoughts based on talking to Grell earlier that week. He's also already starting to give up trying to get a full proper grasp on everyone's personalities and motivations. It's fine...
He notices the conversation topic has veered rapidly off course. He doesn't comment. ]
Why, you just want the experience without getting addicted now?
[ Can't believe I'm dealing with Fukuda talking about vaping at 1:30 in the morning, goodbye. ]
[He did, his shirt looks clean? He does seem to own two white dress shirts here, though. If Steven's been observant he may have noticed since one has a breast pocket and the other doesn't. He also sometimes wears a different pair of suspenders? They are red.]
... Do you want us to invite you next time, Steven? [You're so insistent on this topic.]
I said I won't stop you from doing it. I don't partake in drugs, even of the fairly harmless degree. I don't even smoke anymore. [ Do I have proof that he used to smoke at any point? It's inconclusive but I feel like with his life he'd definitely be an ex-smoker so it's fine. ]
I like to be in full awareness and control over my own faculties. This week and everything about it has been fucking shit enough. [ He felt like he was 20-something again, unstable, erratic, ready to snap. He spent years building on top of that, shoving that part of him to the darkest corner. He didn't need it being dragged up. ]
I guess, since the opium is apparently self-restocking, the alternative would just to have everyone hazed out to hell and back. Fulfills some kind of horrible indulgence I'm sure, while simultaneously invalidating everyone from coherent violent acts.
This week does seem to be challenging for a lot of people... I guess we can only hope it wears off? People are already frustrated and it's only Wednesday.
Tensions are high, this week. Unlike last week, where most people seemed to be feeling pretty decent, and the odd effect didn't have any outright negative impacts.
...Have you felt any changes? Talking to you, you don't seem really any different.
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Well, I've already been to the brink, so I don't see the point in lingering.
[Uh?]
I'd rather just enjoy where I am right now.
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[ What's it with you people, who have already experienced or almost experienced death, and just can... live, like that?
Steven's just incapable of something like that. Or, rather, if he doesn't carefully control all of that, he'd get lost and swept away into nothing. No, he needs to stay alert. ]
I guess that's a talent and power in itself, being able to live like that without fear and regrets.
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Anyway it's fine!!!]
... Hahaha.
[What a funny thing Steven has said!!]
You know, I've heard there are hookah bars today that don't use opium? I suppose it's something like a vape, maybe... I wonder if we could get something like that instead, from the Avatars.
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He notices the conversation topic has veered rapidly off course. He doesn't comment. ]
Why, you just want the experience without getting addicted now?
[ Can't believe I'm dealing with Fukuda talking about vaping at 1:30 in the morning, goodbye. ]
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[Because he's never had anyone to go with.]
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Though, if you want to have a smoke, I can't stop you. [ Will he enable this? ]
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[Safer than Opium.]
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If you want to do weed, I'm not going to stop you from doing it.
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[So he's not planning on doing it now.]
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You already did weed.
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[He did not.]
It was last Thursday, before all the doors locked. That's why Omi, Mr Douman and I were in the kitchen.
[The munchies.....]
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[ Speaking of, did he ever get all of that out of his shirt proper? ]
Well, if you enjoyed yourself enough to consider it a second time.
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... Do you want us to invite you next time, Steven?
[You're so insistent on this topic.]
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I think sometimes it's good to get out of your own head.
[Oh well!]
Hopefully at least people take our warning sign into consideration.
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I guess, since the opium is apparently self-restocking, the alternative would just to have everyone hazed out to hell and back. Fulfills some kind of horrible indulgence I'm sure, while simultaneously invalidating everyone from coherent violent acts.
[ He says that dryly. Don't encourage it. ]
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...Have you felt any changes? Talking to you, you don't seem really any different.
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[No big deal!]
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[ Fukuda your IQ... but at least it was a skill that you weren't using that hard so far to begin with. ]
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Half the people aren't even from modern day.
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