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[holeful]

(Insert a joke about putting things in holes)

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[holeful]

...Aah.
[He doesn't believe you but that's fine.]

Are you... going to be alright? Here by yourself...

[gamerbrain]

The blood is gone, so Aoi is alright.

[ hm. ]

[holeful]

I see... Well, if you get lonely do you have someone you can stay with?

[gamerbrain]

Lonely?

[holeful]

.... You know... when you're alone and it makes you sad?

[gamerbrain]

... Aoi tries not to think about that kind of thing. It makes Aoi feel glitched.

[holeful]

Glitched? What does that feel like?

[gamerbrain]

Like... Thinking about all kinds of stuff Aoi never thought about before. Feeling things that Aoi never felt before.

[holeful]

That's good, though. Aoi should be able to feel everything the rest of us can.

[gamerbrain]

But when bad things happen, Aoi wishes Aoi were like before.

[holeful]

Haha... Yes, I think a lot of people can relate to that, when they feel bad, wishing they could just lose the ability to feel.

[gamerbrain]

Do you feel like that?

CW: SUICIDE ATTEMPT MENTION

[holeful]

I used to a lot.

[Hm. He thinks for a long moment, trying to decide what and how much he wants to divulge. But... it's Aoi. He feels like he can tell her anything. But first he takes her hand, and leads her over to the sofa so they can sit down, still holding Aoi's hand.]

One time, I fell that way so strongly I wanted to die. That's when I drilled the hole in my head.

[gamerbrain]

[ oh... ]

Aoi thought it was to help you think clearer...

[holeful]

Mm. Well, in a way.
[He's looking away from her face, down at her hand in his, that he gently turns over, rubbing his thumb over her palm.]

I was just lucky, really. I ended up surviving with the hole that helped me think clearer.

[gamerbrain]

[ she keeps watching his face, but lets him touch her hand however he pleases. ]

Then was it really the hole that helped?

[holeful]

[He will keep doing it then because the repetitive motion is calming him down.]

It was. I still feel sad sometimes, but it's easier to bear.

[gamerbrain]

You can tell Aoi whenever you're sad. Aoi might not be able to help, but Aoi can listen.

[holeful]

... Okay. And Aoi, too. You can tell me when you feel down.

[gamerbrain]

Really?

[holeful]

Of course. Like you said, I don't think I can help much, but I can listen.